Could be Worse....

In response to the last post, I found these pictures...laughed...and realized... it could be worse

On the up side, my neighbor knew i had a bad day and she showed up at my door with a chocolate candy bar. .. .I almost cried. It was SOO nice of her to do that.

I took off work today and tomorrow.. but in turn i have to work the weekend. I needed a day off though.

Tomorrow we are going to the temple

I cleaned my house today! it looks great!(this includes doing the dishes, which are always PILED up at our house.) I MOSTLY LOVE A CLEAN KITCHEN! and when Huston does the dishes, but i was happy to do them today. haha

My birthday is Next week!!!:)

thats all.

Hard Semester...

Having been in class this semester for almost a full month now, i will complain about my schedule. ... My classes this semester consist of, Statistics, English 201,History, Book of Mormon, and on Online class. Statistics is a challenge. hard and time consuming. English i am actually enjoying, however i am not sure how the teacher grades papers yet. we will see. History.. now History i am going going to complain about. Mostly the teacher. she is seriously evil. i cant handle it. it is her way of the high way basically. i wrote a paper for her, and felt strongly like i followed her guidelines, and apparently it was not even close. her favorite saying is " its in the syllabus, so i wont answer that question." ...i want to believe she is nice, but its like she truly wants her students to fail. literally. the longer i am in her class the more i am realizing her harshness. I HATE history in the first place, and now i have a terrible teacher. Recently i recieved a 3.5/20 on her quizzes. granted i could be doing better on my part, but ....its a HARRRRDDDDDD class. hopefully in the end it will turn out better because as of right now.. its not lookin too great for my grade. so...pray for me please. .. Ps. I work full time. and im always tired.Those are my complaints. but Huston and I are making time to read and pray every night and its helping.

That same teacher i just said i hated, well she just gave this awesome quote in class:
" A man who mas made a mistake and doesnt correct it, is making another mistake." -Chinese Proverb

What do you think? was she talking about MY quiz grade??? yep! HA!
Maybe i shouldnt blog in her class...???

enjoying the fruits of our labors...

We had not been out to our garden since we left for home. so, for a month it was abandoned. and we sucked because we went home, and when we came back it wouldnt stop raining..but :( rest assured that will be the only time it is. We found so much growth. Mostly weeds, but alot of growth! We were able to get a full bag of cilantro, eggplant, cayenne peppers, lots of HUGE carrots, basil, rosemary, and a bell pepper. It was fantastic! We spent about 5 minutes in the garden before we figured out we were being eaten alive my mosquitoes, so we ended up going to get some spray and coming back. We weeded for another hour, Huston dug out all of our rows again, and in a few days we will be ready to plant again. Soon we will also be harvesting some ocra, and green onions. We are going to plant some more onions, and some spinach, along with some lettuce. This has been a really fun project, and we are finding out it is really beneficial to us!! :) We are so grateful for the growth, and also the hard work we have put into it! Now if i could only figure out what to do with all the Cilantro. Any ideas?

some recreational reading...

Today i read this article. i found it quite interesting!!! ... If you ever question blogging again..this puts it into pretty good words.

http://www.salon.com/life/internet_culture/index.html?story=/mwt/feature/2011/01/15/feminist_obsessed_with_mormon_blogs

Im Old...

I wont lie.. lately i have been pondering the fact that if i would have stayed in my program at NAU i would have just graduated this last(2010) December with my classmates. Weird eh?? Oh well.. i have come to terms with the fact that i was not supposed to be a student at that point in my life. for some reason i am supposed to be now, with students who are much much younger than i am. Yesterday in class... we were discussing 9/11 and my teacher said "where were you? how old were you? what do you remember?" well, it just so happens i was in 7th grade at that point in time and some kid across the room raised his hand and says.. i am not sure i really understood, i was only in 3rd grade. WHAT THE HECK???? YOU WERE ONLY IN THIRD GRADE?? well i guess this may marks fives year out of high school for the class of 2007, but really? .. I am old! I still feel like i just graduated. Where has time gone?? instead, my little brother jenson is graduating this year, and i am Marlie will be in 7th grade. And my brother in law james just left on his mission... holy cow!! .. ya.. i cant imagine how my mother and father feel! They are even older, thats what i keep telling myself to make me feel better;) hehe. Cant wait to see what the future has in it!

i am angry

this post is more of a personal private journal entry and is never to be published. if in case it ever accidentally gets published i am sorry in advance for having to listen to me whine. i just dont know what to feel right now or to think. I am trying to be happy ... but its hard ...i am just angry. I hate it when my patience is tried. ... only 2 more weeks until we go home. thats what i need. but now... i am not excited. i am not excited because i will have to hear everyone talk about how excited they are for paul and sam and thier new baby. i wanna be excited too but i just cant be. I have been so patient waiting for my turn to be a mom. and i know its only been a year, but it was a hard year to wait. They are not married, nor do they live any means of the gospel. which, is thier choice. but i dont understand why heavenly father would open that window for them and not for us. why would he send a baby into a home like that? .. dont get me wrong they are going to be good parents and are good people...i mean he is my brother in law. i do love him and sam. but i have been waiting. and waiting and waiting. and it doesnt help at all that i miscarried last month. or so we think. ... grrr... i dont know. i sound so selfish. but Heavenly father knew this would hurt me. i have said multiple times... and he knows how bad i want a baby. why is it I that always has to learn patience?.. Why is his plan always different from mine? ... just once i want it to be the same. selfish i know. but i wander sometimes... why i always have to learn things the hard way. I really try to always be repentant and humble. i do everything i possibly can to live my life right... and try to be a good person. so WHY? i am entitled to be angry right? and cry alot right? cuz i am and i have.
Even worse, this is my husbands family we are talking about. i cant talk to anyone how i feel about it, not even my own husband. because i dont want to hurt his feelings. and because he will stick up for them and he has. whats a girl to do?

Ice Cream for Dinner

Weird... All sunday morning we talked and discussed how our vacation was perfect. it was just enough time, and we loved every second of it. and how we feel refreshed and ready to be here for our 2 year of school, and marraige. I had told Huston i didnt want to talk too much about it, because i wanted the "refresh" feeling to last forever. Because i'll be honest, im not as sad as i thought i would be. I think it maybe has gotten easier because it's now my 2nd year away from home and not my 1st. regardless, its hard. haha...anyways....lets just say it wore off fast. haha. Last night i broke one my husbands favorite authentic german glasses he brought back from his mission..(i know its just stuff, but i felt really really bad because he loves those sooo much)..and then while preparing dinner, the lid to the pepper fell off and dinner was RUINED :( ... i seriously felt sooooo sad. and like i couldnt do anything. and of course im emotional because i got to go to church for the first time in 3 months(work) and so... Lo and Behold, my husband caught on to what i have been trying to teach him. ICE CREAM SOLVES ALL OUR PROBLEMS!! haha He was so sweet, and just said, well.. lets have Ice cream for dinner! How about that???... funny how soon i had a big smile on my face knowning he wasnt mad at me for breaking his cup, or for ruining dinner, even though i know he was hungry! ... What a guy! .. I love him! Yep..Hes mine! ....I feel better today, but thought it was fun to share that we literally ate ice cream for dinner last night! :) ... Diet starts TODAY!!!! we have quite a few holiday poundage to shave off!