If i could go to heaven for a day. I would go tomorrow. Feb. 4th, 2011.. I would go just to tell my big brother Happy Birthday and that he is "old". I would go to see his smiling face, and would spend the day with him. He would tell me about his life in heaven and his missionary work, and we would celebrate his birthday together like brothers and sisters should do. After all, i am his favorite little sister. We would eat ice cream, and reminess about family and laugh together. I can imagine that our relationship would be as though he never left. He would be my best friend. I know it. I would tell him stories as if he were never gone. As if he had been an earthly part of my life forever.
Oh what a dream this day will be. .. I CANT WAIT to see my brother again.
Dear Braiden.
How are you doing?? Tell me whats new in Heaven? I often wander about your life. More in an earthly sense though. Like would i have a great sister in law? Would i have neices and nephews right now? Would you be the genious that Jenson is? Would you have a college degree? In what? Where would YOU be in life!? Would we be close? Would you come visit me in Hawaii? I know that you probably have all of this in Heaven, and loving it. I just wish i knew the answers. I will tell you what though, i CANT WAIT to see you again.I also mostly cant wait to see the reaction on mom's face when she see's she has more grandchildren, who call her Gramma NEE NEE, instead of aunt Nee Nee, or Ny Ny.
By the way, Happy Birthday. I love you. I cant believe another year has gone by. Time is going by way too fast. I often think about you. Mostly when i am in the temple. I can sometimes feel your presence, and i love that. I think that keeps me going back, Aside from the spirit that is felt there, and the much humbling i need to keep doing to myself. The temple makes me feel unselfish. Its a good thing. Believe it or not, I your sister, is a human being, and can be pretty selfish sometimes. Lucky for me, i got a good husband who puts up with me.
Last year i wrote about getting married. Can you believe its been a year? I think you would really enjoy Huston. He is a very good young man, worthy of your sister no worries. He takes very good care of me, and is very understanding like Dad is. Marlie and Jenson approve, i can only imagine that you would too.
There are some updates.. I caved into the voices in my head from MOM AND DAD saying "GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND GET YOUR EDUCATION. YOU NEED A DEGREE." Its been a change going back to school, but its where i am supposed to be. I am actually enjoying it. I have grown up alot. This journey into adulthood is a good thing. Also Huston and I were able to go home for Christmas. Thanks to Mom and Dad helping out. We had sooooo much fun. It had been way too long, and it was a much needed trip. I cried alot when we had to leave. Yep, I know...CRY BABY. You would call me that because your my BIG BROTHER. I also tried out for the Volleyball team here, and can you say OUT OF SHAPE?? But it was a good challenge and goal to work towards. I came very close! You would be proud!
Well... Jenson graduates this year. Where did time even go? I have been out of HS for officially 5 years almost. Anyways, Jenson is a phenominal person. Some lady someday is going to be one LUCKY duck. He is straight as an arrow and has high goals set that i know he will achieve. He will soon be putting in mission papers. That is crazy to me. He will be amazing, you have no idea of this kids dedication to the gospel. He is such a good example. I wish i had his determination and drive. You would be a very proud brother. Which, i know you already are.
Marlie, she is a funny one. She is my best friend. The girl is pretty much an adult already. She is very smart, and funny. You would always laugh because of her wittiness. She came to our family and completed it. You are missed, but i guarantee Marlie makes up for it all and more. She too has a big heart and would never let anyone sit alone at the lunch table. I am impressed with the type of person she is becoming. It is hard for me to be away from thier lives. Jenson and Marlie and my best friends aside from Huston. Thats how i know you and i would get along so well.
After you left, i longed for that "older" sibling bond so much that i decided i would never leave Jenson and Marlie wishing they had that bond. I made sure they always knew they were my friend, like i longed for you to be mine. It has been the biggest blessing in my life to watch them grow up. They are such good people. All in which i credit to Mom and Dad.
Mom seems to be doing better with Huston and I being away, but after leaving at Christmas i learned it was all just a face. She misses us alot more than it appears. haha. Dad too. Its hard to be away from them, but i try to call every now and again so they know we are alive. Mom is still working at Houston Elementary, and Dad still at Gilbert Jr. In thier spare time you will find them at the gym. They look GREAT! seriously, Mom and Dad have never looked better, and they are always there for us kids. Mom and Dad have been very helpful to us this first year of marraige, in more ways than one. We have been very blessed. They miss you too.
I remember last year before the wedding Huston and i were searching for old videos/pictures for our slide show at the wedding and we came across some home videos with you in them.I watched them with Huston, and i cried. ALOT. Huston knew how much you meant to me at that moment. You are my BIG BROTHER, and i still long for that earthly relationship with you, until i remember that Heaven is so much better.
I love you Braiden. Happy Birthday. We all miss you, and cant WAIT to see you again. Good luck this year in all your heavenly endeavors. Your an old man, 27 is pretty old.
Love your Sis
